a world that turned upside down...

2006-01-27T06:23:00.000-08:00

ok.
im pissed off.

ergh.

sat sun mon tues.
NO SCHOOL.

yey.

wanna go out.

i dun care.

wun be gg skafest.
dun ask me y.
im tired of answering.

shits. i wanna go town. i wanna watch movie.
i wanna play pool.i wanna go rockclimbing.
i wanna go espld. cos i wanna jump down frum the rooftop.

so anyone wanna follow-msg me. tankiew.

fucker. i dun care hu i go wit.

you're an idiot.
hate you lah sial

went out wit my sexy thuraiya just now.

eh arsehole. shut up lah.

im craving for more nice nice chocolates.
ate all the ferrero rocher my dad bought.
sorry. none for u guys.

hi bitch. welcome.

2006-01-12T08:08:00.000-08:00

Nadiah is back.
So, hello dearies.
The last post was aeons and aeons ago.
Pardon me. Im just plain lazy.

Life is still sucky.
Im seriously exhausted.
After a long and bloody day at school.
Oh well, it started out with SOMEONE pissing me off early in the morning.
Don't worry, its not you Mom. :P Haha.
Its just a bitch who really thinks highly of herself. There is no need for me
to elaborate.

Well at least I was entertained by the crappy talk I had with Thur (every morning and everytime). In fact
every word that came out from her mouth is full of shit. Not to mention she has this
contagious laughter. IDIOT you. Makes me laugh for no reason. Right Thur? Wakakaka. XP

28 January 2006. SKA FEST!!!!
I badly want to go. Fuck. I don't want to miss all those skankings.
BOOHOO.

Saw that guy again. Didn't get a close look this time. Hmm..He's taller now. Skinnier too. Smoking his lungs out.
OK. No more.

Im filled with mixed feelings and uneasiness. I don't even know what the fucking problem Im facing. That adds to it. Argh! Btw peeled ( or specifically bite?) off the first layer of my fingernail -index finger- AGAIN.Wanna see it? Haha. Nice. Oh well. I do have a habit of biting my fingernails. So excuse me. Thankiew.

Im DAMN sleepy.
Almost slept during EL lesson just now. But shake myself out of Lala Land. Yup. Concentration is important. WOW.

Its only the second week and there's tests all around. Total bull sial.
Okay.

Nuthing left to say.
Bye.

in skool!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-05T00:36:00.000-08:00

HEY EVERYBODY IM LIKE IN SCH!!!!

WAKAKAKAKA

so be it i carn blog at home ill blog in skool!

okok skool was okayyy...

people were like WhOa with my new hairdo.

dunno weder is tat good or bad...?

heck aniwae. wad do i care?

but its reli rimas and i wana cut!

but NOOOO.... cannot.

ahahaha

got a few new teachers.... hmm..

then... ya i almoz slept in amath class junnow...

OH YA. Mr suresh juz tol me junow....

I FAILED MY AMATH DIAGNOSTIC TEST!!!!!!!

AAAAHHHHHHHHRRGGG!

okokok.... ohh fuck i think im having a breakout.

hate IT! okok wana scream...

ps: MY MONEY IS EVAPORATING!

ok gona put up new years eve pics... check it out!

...

2006-01-01T06:03:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR

its bin a long time since i updated...

sorrie....

laptop CRASH!!!

now im at shidah's house...

heheh. ape lagik?

okok i wun be updating until like i get my laptop repaired.

ya so... be patient...

tankew:)

ok aishy's update....

she has straight hair now... haha

she has more pimples! arrrhhh

she lost her brain at esplanade...

she turned to a pig with wings...

she had fun at countdown yesterday at esplanade:)

she had fun at orientation...

she ALMOZ finish her hw! wow.

hmmm wad else arr?

ok i forget. had lotsa FUN this hols arr.

basically....

resolutions for 2006...

to be closer to god...

to concentrate more on my studies.

to NOT sleep in class.

to contribute more to my cca.

to make more frenz...

to be a better person.

ok and some other wants...

2005-12-05T06:05:00.000-08:00

haLoo!!

Im daMn tirEd..jusT came baCk frUm Wild2 Wet...i went..buT i dInt swIm..nyahaha..actUally i waS lazEE.. deN the mOment i steP into the arEa..i seriously regreted noT briNging mY swiMsuit. sheesh! and so I saT wiF my mOm, playinG the gaMeboy for 5 HOURS! deN i slept..haha..my mOm t0ok over, playiNg the gaMeboY..nyahaha..

bUt im s0 freaKIng piSSed off wiF sOme arsEhOles theRe lah...thiNk theY so bIg..maseH smaLL lah ehK..ntaH kencinG dah strait ke bLom..
shaLL noT elaboratE furtheR..erGh.

foR the pasT feW daEs, Im werKIng oN the bLoodyy "directX 9.0c" for the siMs 2..(heHe..luV playinG it) onLy now..deN i managEd to get the prOblem solved....$50++ seyy..

ouh k..im seriously feeling so caged up. i waNNa go ouT wif My freNS..and havE a whole lot of fun..even if its for a daE..

nuthing left to sae..
bubBye!

2005-12-04T20:07:00.000-08:00

hEy hEy my loVelies..

iM simPly bOred..woKe up eaRly t0daY t0 finIsh oFF soMe incomPlete stUff..oh well..

yesTerdaY wenT t0 towN to shOp..wif my faMily of cOs *roLLing eyes* b0ughT skirt, pants and s0me shirts and otheR stuffs..gD2..no neEd for Me to forK up moNey..one advantage when yOU go shoppIng wif famiLy..parenTs pay f0r everythiNg..nyahaha..*evil me*

Im s0 daMn piSsed off..siMply wiF everyOne..haISs

i have not eaten yet n i reAlly waNNa eat!!nyahaha

okok..nuthing left t0 sae..
tata!

2005-12-02T22:34:00.000-08:00

alo0Oo!!

beEn suCh a l0ong tyMe sInce i Last poST..
lazEe t0 the maX..
aiShah taK taU samPai biLer dIer taK leh updaTe..gRr..haha
beEn siTTing arnd aT homE d0inG nuthINg..besIdes waTching videos n s0me stuPid shOws kaT tv..
seriousLy...im dyiNg of boredom..bleahs..
and these irritating siblinGs of minE are pissIng me Off..
erGh..miissH aLL my freNS..caNt go oUt.
iM stuck at h0me and mY bl0ody lil br0 is plaYing wit my haIr now. no. my head. ahh!

t0day goiNg t0wn wif my fam. shoPPing! whEe!

k.
nuthiNg leFt t0 sae..
buBbyes!

2005-11-23T08:42:00.000-08:00

haLoo! oH weLL iM back.
oN behalf of aishaH, iM so sOrry she caNt update f0r the tiMe beinG.
hEr c0mp sodd. s0 understand underst00d jer lah.

haiSs..orYte wad did i d0 toDay..hmm..well..basIcally i w0ke uP eaCh daE to fInd that my liFe is geTTing worse. w0ke up at 9.30 today..ruSh to sCh wiF thUR..deN haD the usuaL el less0ns. wenT hoMe..sat arNd..aTe..dEn chaNge n g0 t0 Lavender wiF my m0m and the 2 kidd0s to make my IC. cucI maTer sejaP. deN g0 ceNtury sQuarE t0 have diNNer..at fOod culture oR wadeveR u caLL it. tHe kidd0s ate LJS..den shOp wif my m0m at TM..den g0 wHitesand and bUy stuff. den went home.

yup. its the same boring day. gigs coming up. more and more gigs. wonder if i can make it.ergh.

oh well life sux. btw been having peaceful sleeps for the past few days. hours and hours of sleep. haha. guess why. haha.
ok update 2moro aites..
nuthing left to say
bubye.

2005-11-18T20:44:00.000-08:00

aL0o..

Its me agaiN..since aIshy taK leh updaTe..i sHall update more ofTen..

t0daY wokE up extRa earLy t0 help my m0m witH the ch0res. *sTep baek* hehe. btw waNna wiSh
HAPPY 16th(ryte?) BIRTHDAY TO ASRI.
May all your wishes c0me true. And all the best in everything that you are achieving for. Hope you and Liyana wolud last foreverand May ALLAH bless you. :)

Hmm..yesterday went out with my family. Bought a watch for my brother. Damn nice sia. *jealous* hehe. My parents asked if i wanted one..but i said no 'cause the one that i wanted was $200 plus..ex uhh..dun waNna waste their moNey just for buying me a watch. Den went to pizza hut to have dinner. Den go shopping! ahas..

Dunnoe whats the plan for today..most prob gonna be sitting around at home doing nothing..
But tommorrow hafta wake up damn early to go sch with baju kurong! wtf..ahas..be going with wani..meet Cikgu at sch to send us to Bedok View Sec. Den going jln rayer to Cikgu's house. Den maybe following wani and others dunnoe go where.

ok
nuthing left to sae
bubbye!

2005-11-15T21:55:00.000-08:00

haLoo my w0nderfuL peOple~

wHerE are y0u, aIshy??
aRsehOle laH you..lazEe t0 updaTe..
sEe..iM d0inG my j0b..xP heHe

o0oO..naDeya has g0ne iNsane.. been smiLing uNintentionaLLy.. *widE grin*hehe
Im s0mehOw feEling raTher haPpy recenTly.. as in REALLY happy :))
caNt fInd the explainatiOn t0 thIs..caN yoU? :P heHe
bUt fOr sUre ivE never act or feLt this waE before. wHat caN it be?
*smiLing*

Its a hot, humid day.
erGh. PerspirIng lyke shIt..
beEn tryiNg to contact aIshy...bUt shE seeMs to be TOO buSy..buSy sleEping. yUp either sleEping or oUt. bLoody y0u.heHe.

ouh yah how can i eVer forgeT thiS importaNt daE..
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY THURAIYA BTE ROSLEE!
hope aLL ur wisHes c0me thru..aNd all the best in the upcoming years and lead a successful life in the future. maY ALLAH bless y0u. Just bare in mind that in whatever shit you are goinG thRu..im aLwaes heRe t0 suPPort y0u. :)) btW present kau..i'll try to get it asap aites..nga p0kai skarang..heHe..understand understood jek lah eh..heHee.

im freaking boRed now..haiss.

ouh k. nuthing left to say.
buBye my wonderfUl peoPle!:))

2005-11-13T22:00:00.000-08:00

Ergh. Im hooked to the song. The 8th time now. Its just so nice. Big fan of Gerhana Ska Cinta. -> thats Me <- Ahas. Their songs are just simply wonderful. :))

TERPESONA
-Gerhana Ska cinta-

Kau selalu di hatiku
Tiap detik dan waktu
Engkau masih di hatiku
Walaupun kau tak tahu

Kaulah yang terindah
Seindah taman kota Babylon
Bagai bidadari
Ayu wajahmu tiada terperi
Inginku bersamamu selalu

Kau selalu di hatiku
Kau bertakhta di jiwaku
Cintaku hanya untukmu
Walaupun kau tak tahu

Kau selalu di hatiku
Tiap detik dan waktu
Engkau masih di hatiku
Walaupun kau tak tahu

Kaulah yang terindah
Seindah taman kota Babylon
Bagai bidadari
Ayu wajahmu tiada terperi
Inginku bersamamu selalu

Tapi apa yang ku pasti
Kau tak akan kumiliki
Telah ku cuba berkali
Kau tak pernah pun peduli

addicted lah deyy..the 9th time now..ahahs..
ok nuthing left to sae. bubye!:))

2005-11-13T21:20:00.000-08:00

Life is not as perfect as what it seems to be.
It do not turn out as flawless.
I realize it. Things are just not what we think it is.
Truth hurts but this is life. We have to accept it.
I look back and think.
Through all the deepest shit ; there are always reasons for it.
People live in disguise.
They're not what we think they are.
But somehow through them, we learnt.
Learnt the true meaning of life.

Thanks to all the people who were behind me all this while.
I really appreciate it. You are reason Im still surviving.
Thanks.
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2005-11-12T20:58:00.000-08:00

FUCK. SUCKERS!

THIS GOES TO WHOEVER WHO DESERVES IT.
STOP INVADING OTHER PEOPLE'S PRIVACY.

2005-11-12T18:46:00.000-08:00

HaLoO my w0nderfUl peOple..

jUz wOke uP..daMn tiRed sEyy..

yEsterdaY weNt raYer..frUm paSir Ris aLL the wAe to yiShun(or waS it w0odlands..not sure..hehe;p). Tired...leg aching. t0ok cab home witH Nazurah and Aishy..reach home aT 12 plus... kena scolded. buT i was s0 tireD i couldnt caRe less..dint conf c0z i slept soon after i lay myself on the bed..;p..lo0ks lyke i lost the beT to kai..erGh..5 bucks gone..ahas..but it was nOt fuLLy my fault..cant use the ph...my m0m t0ok it..haisS..

bye.

hari raya outing

2005-11-12T09:32:00.000-08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT........

aishy's hp is temporarily OUT OF SERVICE

DO NOT call her or sms cz ull juz be wasting them

kol her HOME. its okayy. haha.

btw... raya outing was SUPER-tiring.

my leg still aching... n we'r still conferencg.

gosh... haha. but it was okayyy.

for once im FEMININE again... wowie.

made new frenz again...

got collection. tho moz of it spent on taxi.

taxi was $24! $4 for midnite charge.

so ex... urgh. but i din get any scolding:P

reach home at abt 12.30am.

went to quite a few houses uh.

den tmr Nai's open house...

think im gg wif my family...

AKLTG and YFC camp.

2005-11-11T09:00:00.000-08:00

HEY IM BACK! haha. juz came back from YFC camp.

HAHA SUPER-FUN

but its like more like a sleep-over... heck!

ya... atiqah was irritating.

i became a storyteller/entertainer.

we all bonded. slept together. AHEM!

ahahhaha... and i had funny SOCKS!

we FLYFLYFLY!!! im so TANNED!

den we wanted to bathe sooo badly. mr Tan din allow.

im redy so dark... urgh. but it was okayyy.

man i MISS DANNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seriously... ahhhh i can go crazy.

btw for those hu dunno who danny is...

danny is one of the coaches during the Adam Khoo prog.

he soooo CUTE. and HOT.

esp when he did the pushups.

i din reli like him until he tok to me personally coz i was fasting n skippd lunch.

i tol him tt i saw him at DG playing pool wif gary n all...

ya den he say next time can challen... if terserempak uh.

aaaaaahhhh!!! hahah. and he rememberd me!

tt time when i redy went home he said to nailah...

"eh ur the girl-who-plays-pool fren ryttt???" see! :P

okok carn wait to go jln rayer tmr. wheeeee.

2005-11-09T21:17:00.000-08:00

HaPpY Tw0 mOnths AnNiversaRy tO Khairul Anwar and Nazurah!

hOpe yOu twO laST fErEver! gOrgeous coUple~!

HmM 12 Daes tO Khairul (Bob) and Nazierah's oNe moNth aNNiversaRy..!
cOol huH.. tHe khairULs and the Nazs!
jiWer bruDDers!
kHekhEkhe!

sO...daN...AisH...Nai...biLer???
heHe.

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CamE baCk frUm sKool..haD el lessOns..actUally noT realLy..we arrIve therE to fiNd thaT therEs no teacher. so we waited tiLL eleven. deN we bLah. whEE. ahHaas.

hMm. i Dunnoe buT maybe im Suffering from depressIOn.sheesh. ahahas. ader2 jek aKu nie. beeN so touchy latEly. iVe never beEn this saD befOre. alMost everY minute in Life.
ErgH! All i wanT is tO breAk fRee. i dUnnoe hOw lOng i cAN lasT. Hope i dUn exploDe.
buT somehoW theRe are stIll pPl whO coUld make me sMILe :)) anD laugh! =I)
They reaLLy brighten up my dae.

HahahS..oK..nuThing lefT to saE..bYE!

oH yah THURAIYA! thaNKs for the SHIRT ...love it. love you!!!!
aND i reLy waNNa go JLn raYer. .! sobS.
bubbye my wonderful ppl.

2005-11-08T20:15:00.000-08:00

haloo!

shah.. its not that i cant be bothered to update lerr..comp rosak..

btw...selamat hari rayer aidilfitri!...sorry wish u ppl late..as i said..comp broke down..btw kalau ader salah silap..sengaje ataupun tak..harap dimaafkan..zahir dan batin...halalkan mkn minum aites..:)

hmm....its been a bloody boring holiday...grounded..cant go out..cant even go out rayer wit frens...wtf! i dun see the motive in grounding me. i feel so controlled..hp kener tarik..ergh. bad enuf and theres worse. need to attend sch almost everdae..el lessons all the wae. argh!

btw...miss aishah n nailah soo much! not been seeing them fer a looong tyme..wished could join them rayer..hmm. sobs :(((

hari rayerr

2005-11-05T19:52:00.000-08:00

EH EVRIBODY I UPDATED MY PICS REDY GOT NEW ONES!!!

heh... 3rd day of raya...

and i went to...

only 1 house. HAHA. pthetic. nvmla.

i wore BAJU KEBAYA!!! waHHH!!!

haha u noe me... org tkle dudok diam.

jln tak btol... lari2... mane leh pakai baju kebaya.

but i DID! dun bliev?... c urself.

mukerrr.... heheh. aishy2...

thats meee!!!

heeheee......

BTW... NADEYA!!!! gi post lar entry... asik aishy jerr.... lerrr... kick kau aru tau.

hari raya

2005-11-04T02:15:00.000-08:00

hari raya was... okayyy. i guez.

1st dayyy. biaser, respek... me pakai tudong(wahhh! alim sehh)

heehee... mesti uh. aishy kan BAEK *winks*

anothertime in the year when we get to bond with the family :))

got abit closer with my family members.

OK FINE SHIDAH I AM SENSITIVE. so what? ahah!

duit raya very little uh.

my fam din reli go to that many houses.

haha just now my house kene serbu sihh...

soo many ppl cum... hectic uh.

den i cum home from sch so paiseh. haha.

den at nite we all cuzzins play bungapi+bom bag

idiotic guys... haha. throw bombag at us.

tak kenerrr!!!!! ahahahaHH!!!!

saiful so meanlahh...

den the guys go n throw2 bungapi.

klau masok umah org tu naseb uh.

oh ya new pics up.go check it out.

full of shit...

2005-11-02T21:11:00.000-08:00

SHITT!!! im full of SHITT...

aishy feels SHITTYFIED!!!!

urgh...

u ppl wont understand!

yes U.

wadevala...

things will never turn out the way i want it to.

it NEVER does...

thats it. im done.

bye2.

*no mood for raya*

so boreddd

2005-10-31T22:20:00.000-08:00

aishy super-bored todae...
went to mit nad to get $$$.
den go pp spose to mit cherlia.
but she wuzn there.
i tink i wuz too late i guez.
hahaz.sorrie...
now i muz find sum1 to teman me tmr... urgh!!
den had to go *sumwhere* ALONE!!!!
ahem to get sumbody's prezzie... *hint2*
see lah. i tink i bcum lone-ranger redy...
sadd ryt??? den evribodi else taking Os or grounded...
den i so lazy to kol up evrione else...
haiss den got so pissed wif my parents...
they're complaining bt home fon bills...
pdhal i redy cut down MORE THAN HALF of the previous bills.
wad else do they xpect?? sheesh.
den i wait DAMN LONG for my fon to be recoverd.
still not yet. still barred wtf. pdhal obviously not my fault..
den tkle pakai hp beh kene mara kai home fon...
wad u xpect me todo? sheesh.
wadevalahh....

outing...

2005-10-30T10:44:00.000-08:00

aishy waishy long time nvr update hehs...

beh nadiah oso cannot b bothered...

laz saturdae went out with STM(minus rudy coz he's grounded). Nad oso grounded. den Nai got tution. so i ALONE!!!!! ahahah. but it din turn out so bad.... i guez... Dan oso kinda alone. but he nvr layan me sgt... ya soi still lone-ranger... bob wif Nazierah. Kai wif Nazurah. Sham wif Shikin. ya we go play pool... eat at jakarta n gosh the menu there was erm... funny?... or disgusting?... den we made fun of it... haha. we all eat nasi goreng in the end. den go esplanade lpk2 den got band playing... den go eat tepi-jalan ice-cream. den Nazurah dunno how to eat all drop on the floor. haha. den kai muz suap. ya overall oklah... lucky i had my mp3 to keep me company. if nottt mendakz babe. heh. maybe its abt time i find myself a company heh. wadya tink? my company da grounded beb. haha. kesian nadiah. tkperla. bersaba jek...

change layout

2005-10-28T03:14:00.000-07:00

SO HAPPY I CHANGED MY LAYOUT...

heeheehee... got abit mendak with the previous one... but still trying to put music... so stay calm ppl....

to nadiah and rudy. dun feel too bad abt being retained k?... dun worry its nt the end of your life... u guys must tell yourselves that you must do better next year... and you know ill always be there for you guys anytime... whether its about academics, work or juz to make your day... take itin a positive way... its only for your own good...

My ear with the piercing is SWOLLEN! shiet. dunno wth happen... haha. but its funny... heehee. pain larr... i tink cz i terantuk n hit it so many times...

i woke up at 2 and stayed at home the whole day today... haha.

2005-10-24T07:02:00.000-07:00

yeah. finally.
im updating.
the previous post was aeons ago. hahkz.
btw..thnks fer all the berfdae wishes yar! n the berfdae prezzies too!
heHee..appreciate it a lot.
went out wit my family yesterdae. celebrated my berfadae. it was great.
and same goes to the previous dae. supposed to meet sarah at tamp control station at 2 but thur and i decided to just come to her house strait. arrived at 4. sorry. yj was werking on the fonts while sarah and clara paint on it. me? i slept.hehee. but did some werk though. then left at 6 to meet aishah n company. hahkz. buker at BK. den tawaf2 geylang.
damn hot. perspire lyke a mad dog.hehee. arrived home at 10 plus2.
and so today...went to sch at 8. did my compo retest. it was sucky. yes. it was. im gonna be retained. im in the list. i dun want to. rely. i dread it. but if im fated to, i shall accept it and take it as a positive perspective. i wished im that optimistic. unfortunately im not. ok. dun wanna sae a werd bout it anymore. drives me crazee. ok den came home at 10 plus. slept till wani called at 2 . went fer hmt but when we arrived there. no one one was in sight. so we left. planned to go to afganistan to buy kueh but there was no need for us to go there. there was a stall at tamp interchange selling those kuehs. and so we bought and left. and only then we found out that there was actually hmt lesson but was conducted in a different class. bullshit. yup.
dun feel lyke going to sch 2moro. coz there will be a trip to sungei buloh nature park. and im fasting. nonono. im so not gg. hahkz.
okie im off now. nuthing left to say. bubbye my wonderful ppl.

entry-less

2005-10-23T23:08:00.000-07:00

okok ppl. its been SUPER-long since i updated this blog of mine. sorrie k? bin quite bz lately. or juz lazy. haven been conferencing much either. haiss... even if i do, i wun stay up so late... gosh, reli RELI reli hope u all undrstand. ive got other stuff to attend to. even if i have the time to call il be SUPER-tired.

belay school was fun. teasing sec 2s during games was even more fun. gosh, i still muz do that irritating research. hur3. sobs. still thinking of games for YFC camp. games and games and games. games dept rox!

stuff at home isnt getting any prettier either... sighz. it has never been... God please help us. please help mum.

oh mannx, getting back report book soon. not-the-very good i guez. heehee... we'll juz see...

yesterday was kinda fun. me and nai got our piercings with renny... heheh. bin wanting it for sooo long. oh ya den along the way terserempak with the brudders and their girl frens and relatives... sooo kecohh. haha. den meet nad n thur at bugis den buker at BK with renny's bro n his frenz. den tawaf3 at geylang. fuyoohh, panas gilerrr. den so sesak. abiss air sembahyang BATAL. aHahahaha. den go macs pack stuff den go home!!! wheehehehe.

oh ya... n HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH AZLAN aka shorty, bonchet and etc...... :)

2005-10-12T22:43:00.000-07:00

one more dae left.

den im free- from stress

ahhhhh

fri fri fri fri pls come FAST!

tentang kita

2005-10-09T02:27:00.000-07:00

Waktu terasa semakin berlalu

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2005-10-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

hello... ya spose to post this lyk laz monday... but my digicam no batt... hahaha. ya lyk i promised... spose to credit NAZ and DIRAH for the prezzies they gave me. haha. i LOIKE. its spose to be a belt. but the super-nice salesgirl cut it all up bcum 5 dif presents... haha. but i din put the laz one in. studs uh. i put on my bag den the rez duno wher to put... ya THANKS NAZ N DIRAH.... wheeeheheheh. luv ya loads...

....

2005-10-01T11:33:00.000-07:00

aishy is not in a very good mood these days...
reli2 sori if iv nt bin myself these few days.
im reli trying to cheer up
went out to destress junow
learnt to play pool. hahz
had a gr8 time at my cuzzys hs.
now im in a bad mood agn.
home fon bill juz came.
im the culprit. i admit.
n i have to pay for all of them myself.

hu noes i may bump into u at the bank tmr
haiss... fine.

2005-10-01T05:46:00.000-07:00

hey hey my nice nice ppl...
dint post fer quite sumtyme..busy busy busy lazy lazy lazy...
huahuahua

nuthing much happened lah these days..except for the fact that im totally stressed up.
year end exam c0ming !! ahhh!! stress!! ergh!!

hah..but not today..ahakz..went out wit the bros and sis..huahuahua...a wae to destress myself..coz whenever im wit them..i was alwaes entertained..hehe...but nai and rudy dint fullow..so sad...
so early in the morn i woke up..rush to school for bio lesson..hmm..effective lah i can sae..cos i forced myself for once to actually DO the qns...not COPY..hehee...for once lahh..thanks miss yap. haha..den go fer physics lesson strait after tat. fer the ferst half an hr..we were all chatting and craping den start our werk then. was dismissed later than i expected...so rush lyke shit to home to change ..den meet aishah and we go 2gether to jumper dan and bob
went play pool. i dint play. shy shy lah..i dunnoe how play...hehee...kai came wit nazurah later. aishah's a fast learner. she's great fer a freshie lah. hmph. i dint even play. ahah. den after tat kai and nazurah left..so left me aish dan and bob...go eat lj..crap2 tok2 luf2 ahakz..den after tat go hang out...took pics and stuff...was luffing lyke a mad dog...part yg bob and aish took pics-ahahahahah *wink wink aishah**wink wink bob**wink wink dan*hehehehe...u noe i noe we noe..ahahahah. den aish had to leave early and i fullowed her go home..bob go bali? ahakz. 0klah i belived you lah..hehe*but im still doubtful* heheheee..
btw happy children's dae ppl!! ahaha..
so now must go study...do hmwk and stuff...must study. den 2 weeks later can play!! whee!
so ok..nuthing left to sae...
bubbye my nice nice ppl.

MY BERFDAE

2005-09-26T22:03:00.000-07:00

.hello evrione.for those who wished me.and those who gave me presents.tanx ALOT... reli appreciate it.n my twin who surprised me by writing happy bdae on my class whiteboard...haha.reli gave me a shock when i went in.raudha, the conflakes u made were super nice:)make summorela.... heeheee.what a birthday... felt so much betta in sch todae.tho i wuz fasting n wuz super hungry cz i din eat much the nite b4.din even get enuff slp...haisss. i wuz so miserable.but guess evrything will be okayy. i hope.Amath made me even more miserable.reli trying to catchup n understand what the fu*k its all abt.haiss.i duno. juz carn help but be sadd. i shud enjoy my dae today.but i can never force myself to be happy.i may put on a fake smile.what do they care?what do U care?sudd i wish i cud make a miracle happen.i wish.tts wad i always do.wish n wish n wish... but nth cums out of it. wads the pt? so wad if i have freedom? is that really what evry teenager needs to be happy?think again.cz ur so wrong.

.HAPPY BDAE TO ME.

.happy 1-yr of singlement.

the-middle-girl

2005-09-26T03:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY SITI AISHAH BTE ZAHARI!
WISH YOU ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR UPCOMING YEARS.
WISH YOU ALL THE BEST-EST FOR THE EXAMS.
HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT FUTURE AHEAD.
STAY CHEERFUL ALWAYS. AND BE MY SIS FOREVER.
dah besar seyy orang tu..dah leh dpt IC..hehEe...
ouh yah remember,
TO THE WORLD YOU MAY BE SOMEONE.
BUT TO SOMEONE YOU MAY BE THE WORLD.
LOVE YOU!<33>

shucks.

maths sucks to the deep bloody core.

been doing it fer the past an hour..all those maths ASSignment i owed...maths is just a plain bullshit.

din update fer daes. lazy.

feel lyke eating chocalate now..anyone have any?

sch's been such a stress. everyones rushing. rushing to finish up all those bloody topics..eng next fridae. ergh.
have not been going out. cant go.
love miss yap. shes my source of motivation.

miss nailah. have not been kolling her. nvm..we shall meet soon aites. mmwwahh. :)

my eyes are gettimg real heavy.
nothing left to say.
bubye.

freaking out

2005-09-21T23:27:00.000-07:00

EYE getting closer

freaking out

help

haiss

wad if i dun make it?

nad

its oklahh

pokai pon tkperla

i dun care bt the present

i juz wana be happy

same for nai

afi

duno y, bin worrying alot bt u

even since i found out...

dun get me wrong

dun wori. im supportive :)

2005-09-19T00:41:00.000-07:00

baru balik...
frum skoOL..daMn tiRed..lyke sHit..jUst an0thEr borIng daE. no. skOoL is the one yaNg bUat bOring. waIting fOr thUraiya to cOme ovEr my hoUse..wHerE's tHat gerL..grR..

sO yesTerdaE wAs alSo a daMn blo0dy borIng day...woKe uP deN gO ugaMer straIt awAy..-eh aIshah..aKu pekIk naMer kaU maCam naK geGar saTu duNia..kaU taK pusINg2..koNgajaR kaU...- aisHy weNt esP t0 stUdy anD me? nyaHaha..i slePt straiT afTer i caMe bacK frUm ugaMer..s0 practIcally the wHole daE yesT i slEep..deN i reFuse t0 waKe uP eVen aFter mY sIs pUsh me d0wn the bEd..cOs i haVnt eVen staRt on mY hmWk..deN at 12 SHARP aisHah kold..ahaS..lucKy me..if nOt i'll be sLeeping tiLL the nExt morN..anD i'LL be neglecTing mY hmwK..loaDs of it..

BUT on saT iT waS daMn fUn..i wAs entertAined..bY the bRos anD siS..waTch deM jaM..grEat talenT thEy havE..ahaS ruDy caM monYet..ahaHahas..fuNny laH he..keEp takIng piCs of tHem..dEn gO eaT...no. thEy aLL eat. baRu jEr naK staRt makAn weN i lo0k at the tiMe..LATE as per usuaL..so end uP leaviNg thE bRos and Sis..and thE fo0d...deN ruSh hoMe..i reLy meAn RUSH. deN saMpai rUmah..waS expecTing somE shouTs and naGs by mUa moTher..buT enD uP she asK me t0 eaT..anD giMme the sToinK faCe..sHud haVe staYed lOnger wiT theM..and finsh thE FOOD. lerr..

noW..stIll waItinG fOr thaT thuRaiya to cOme..wheRe on eaRth and Hell is tHat bloodY gurL...sHes gonNa gEt iT laTer..muaHahahahaha..eviL me..

notHIng leFt tO saE..
enD heRe aiTes..
i'LL TRY to poSt suM otHa daEs..
so buBye my wOnderfUl peoPle..

lonely dayy....

2005-09-18T09:22:00.000-07:00

it wuz a nice dae today...

spent my 2nd half of my day with myself

din go gig tho

evrybody mugging for exams

haiss... exams...

so i ended up studying at esp

wahahaha

juz came back

btw, had fun jamming yest

din jam tho. oni watch.

oni the brudders did

haha, okla i wuz entertained

did my primary studies at the same time

n drew Natt n Rudy...

oh ya Rudy so farnie. MONYET!

den dey tease2 me rudolf.

hurmph. majok uh.

den regret uh nvr play...

haiss. malu per pasal...

2005-09-16T07:20:00.000-07:00

heLLow mY w0nderFul pEople..

t0day's finE..i gueSs..n0thing mucH haPpenEd lah..samE goeS to the previouS daEs..hmM..
haTe sk0ol to tHe coRe..eVerythIng's jUst seEms t0 be dIfferent..esP the peEps..oR maybE iTs me..maYbe iM the oNe huS chanGing..maYbe..maNy haVe c0mmenTed b0ut thaT arEdie..theY'vE beEn asKing me iF im ok..or wHy do I seEm so saD..wHy I sEem so qUiet..or wHy do I ofTen keEp tO myseLf theSe daeS..thE thIng iS do I? i dunNoe..i dUnnOe waTs bothEring mE..i jUst dOnt..buTacTually I waS qUiTe toucHed bY theIr conCern..aT leaSt n0w I noE gOod Ppl exiSt..beSideS me.. :)) heHee..j0king2.. :P
bUt reLy..waDs boTherIng me? wHy d0 i ofTen feEl s0 doWn? i CanT evEn reaD mY owN thoughTs.. i wIshed i Can..weLL..maybE thIngs juSt chaNge..a liL bIt.

eXams cominG up aRedie..gOt thE bloOdy tiMe taBle juST n0w..muSt starT prepaRing aNd stUdy arEdie..

yUp mE t0o aiSh..iVe beEn d0zinG ofF in cLass laTely..aHas maYbe thAts tHe reasOn wHy pPl saE i quietEned dowN theSe daEs..tHats becaUse i waS actUally sLeepIng.waKaka..yaH my m0m's beEn lecTuriNg mE boUt my sLeePing tIming..noT goOd lah bLa bla bLa..yaH buT i jusT lisTened laH..beaR wiT it..bUt i nOe lah shE do aLL this fEr my oWn g0od..heHee..n0 mattEr hOw muCh shE naGged me..sHe wiLL be thE perSOn i l0ve moSt...<33...hehee..love>

juSnow eNd up gOing h0me aLone..thUr haD to g0 fEr deteNtion..tHe rEst aLL goNe..haIz..loNe raNger..beEn so b0reD theSe daEs..haIx..aT leAst t0morRow g0t pLans..n0 neEd siT at h0me aLL daE juSt lYke i Did evErydaE...nI lah hIdop..
tHan i'LL end uP waCThinG rePeateD shOws oN tv..lyKe "Azura" n0w..thE st0Ry quiTe niCe laHh..ahaS..

0klah..i'll st0p here lahH..noThing lEft t0 say..
buBye my w0nderFul pe0plE...
haVe a Nice daE..

ZIT!!!

2005-09-15T20:05:00.000-07:00

AHHHH IM A CLOWN!!!!
GOT RED NOSE! WAKAKAKAKAKAK.
N A STUPID ZIT IN THE MIDDLE
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH
oh ya n im proud to say that
I FASTED EVEN THO I HAD P.E.
wahhahahahahaha.
oni 5 more dayssss

parents...

2005-09-14T01:24:00.000-07:00

bin dozing off in sch quite abit.

teachers think tt its cz i overstudy

when im actually not

shiet. my biological clock is still wrong.

now im getting worried

1 thing i haf to do. show my dad tt i can pass my amath.

withOUT freaking tuition.

apparently he wuzn satisfied wit my progress report

he never is. ahem, as if he cud hav done betta.

tau kutok jer... pdhal byk bende lain yg bagos...

he called me CUNNING yesterday

am i THAT bad? urgh luk at urself 1st.

but mum tol me that he's sensitive :)

tmr skool

2005-09-12T01:14:00.000-07:00

ur rite nad.....

SHIET TMR SKOOL

I HATE SKOOL

I WISH FOR SKOOL TO END

NOWWWW

URGH

SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO EYEs

2005-09-11T04:37:00.000-07:00

hey hey

2moro open sk00l..lazee go..dunwan go lahh
malas uuh hari bangun pagi2..
den go sk00l..must study...damn lazee
haiz

finished my hmwk!! whee happy giLer..ahhakz
finally..yey!!

nyahahah

nothing left to sae..so bubye my wonderful ppl..

boring...

2005-09-10T01:10:00.000-07:00

ngok ngok ngok!... ahahaah. video brudder kiter nie....

http://www.putfile.com/pompansodd

2005-09-07T00:16:00.000-07:00

Jika - Ari Lasso && Melly Goeslow

Jika teringat tentang dikau
Jauh di mata dekat di hati
Sempat terpikir tuk kembali
Walau beda akan kujalani
Tak ada niat untuk selamanya pergi

Jika teringat tentang dikaujauh di mata dekat di hati
Apakah sama yang kurasa
Ingin jumpa walau ada segan
Tak ada niat untuk berpisah denganmu

* Jika memang masih bisa mulutku berbicara
Satu kata yang ingin terucap
Kan kudengar caci dan puji dirimu padaku
Kita masih muda dalam mencari keputusan
Maafkan daku ingin kembali
Seumpama ada jalan untuk kembali

Jika teringat tentang dikaujauh di mata dekat di hati
Tak ada niat untuk selamanya pergi

Jika teringat tentang dikaujauh di mata dekat di hati
Tak ada niat untuk berpisah denganmu

2005-09-06T23:27:00.000-07:00

Ada Apa Denganmu
*Peter Pan*

Sudah, maafkan aku
Segala salahku
Dan bila kau tetap bisu
Ungkapkan salahmu
Dan aku sifatku
Dan aku khilafku
Dan aku cintaku
Dan aku rinduku

Sudah lupakan semua
Segala berubah
Dan kita terlupa..
Dan kita terluka

Dan aku sifatku
Dan aku khilafku
Dan aku cintaku
Dan aku rinduku

Reff:

Kutanya malam,
Dapatkah kau lihatnya perbedaan
Yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa, kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu?

Oh, hanya malam
Dapat meleburkan segala rasa
Yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa, kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu?

2005-09-06T22:23:00.000-07:00

yesterdae went out with the sisters and brudders. go watch the AMAH..ahakz..the maid..it was oklah..not relly scary but the sound effect..ish..anjat ger gerl..hehekz. i was late..it was halfwae the movie baru aku dtng...den went home late. expecting the worse but it was not tat bad fer a grounded person lyke me..not bad at all lah actually...worried fer nothing ony..shud have enjoyed to the fullest. or to stay longer..ahahakz. melampau nadiah..hehee

i missed going out wit thur..i ferget wens the last tyme i went out wit her..my dear fren..ahakz..lifes changed..i think.but i dun.im still the nadiah tat everyone noes..so to S0ME ppl out there, nadiah is STILL nadiah. i still havent found the suitable prezzie fer miss yap..wonders wen im gonna get it..hmm..havnt started on my hmwk yet..lerr..bullshit lah hmwk..but still have to do ryte..kater nak buck up..

aishah, i looiikkee ur art piece. i love it..but mines BETTER..ahahakz..nyahaha..jgn marah..heheee jkjk..i like aishah's new style..jgn kembang arh aishah..i noe ur smiling now..:)) khekhek.

haiz...i thinnk i have a new job now..BABYSITTER..my mom and dad slalu kluar..so have to jager my siblings..takper..wat is kakak fer ryte..i love my family btw.. :)) cehh..ahakz..at least i noe..they are the ones hu willl alwaes be there fer me no matter wat. though im grounded..though i cant go out..(actually i can lahh..ahahzk) though i cant use the phone..( can i ? ) though they told me to take care of my irritating siblings. hehee. life has its up and down..so i hafta accept it..hmm..since wen im so positive..ahakz* ni mesti kejer aishah* nyahaha.

ok..nothing left to say..so bubye my wonderful ppl..heheheee

outing no. 3

2005-09-06T01:16:00.000-07:00

finished!!!

ya btw junow me n the bros went out... went to watch the BABU... haha the maidla.... ya etc3. had fun n all... got pix. wheee. wahahah. nadiah was LATE. i came home late den stuck outside w/o the key cz nobody at hm... din get scolded tho i wuz late. wahahah. NAILAH DIN GET SCOLDED either... wahahaha. so hapi for herrr.

the used

2005-09-05T04:19:00.000-07:00

nad... ko tarok lyric lyric.... i oso wan to putlahh.... wahahaha

Small, simple, safe price

Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets

This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals

And I am not afraid to die

I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.

I want the pain of payment

What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts

Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks

Would you be my little cut?

Would you be my thousand fucks?

And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid

To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts

My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter

I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart

Love is not like anything

Especially a fucking knife

2005-09-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya

Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi

Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali

Rasa yang kutinggal mati

Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu

Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku

Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi

Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali

Rasa yang kutinggal mati

Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini

Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri

Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri

-mUNGkin naNTi-

*Peter Pan*

2005-09-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

harlowww
aku penat giler babi..juznow rewang..my cuzzie kawin..congrats kak azian!nyahaha..shes so preetty..! had fun..but exausted uuh..and i have to go skoool tomorow. fer oral..i think half wae tru the oral..il be snoring..but rely..i hope i will do well fer it..english meant a lot to me now since i failed it the previous tyme..saddening..and thats the reason why im grounded. partly the reason uuh..haiz..

ppl sae im frickle. im choosy. im undecisive. im too secretive. but what can i do? things just happen. am i at fault? maybe. but i have my own reasons fer it.. i dun wan to hurt and i dun wan to be hurt. but this is lyfe. i have to accept it. you have to accept it. dan aku sifatku.

still wondering if i can make it fer tues. hmm..lets wait and see lahh..not sure wat we're gonna watch..nyahaha..maybe im gonna watch tv AT HOME...heheheeeee..dis daes im feeling blue..as in down lahh..*sum ppl might get the WRONG thing*;p...i dunnoe why..i just cant read my thoughts..neither can i read my heart..they're two completely diff thing..maybe tats the reason why im undecisive..

iugyhv

2005-09-02T01:44:00.000-07:00

am i not appreciated

im invisible

fuck you

holidays are gone

puaser masih tanggung

2005-09-02T01:12:00.000-07:00

hey there

i feel so fucked up. i dunnoe why. im pissed. ergh. wadever.

suddenly, miss yap came into my mind. ahakz.
shes wonderful. rely. love her lots.<3>
i think shes the only teacher whom i can be frank wit. honestly. shes the best teacher ever. BUT i dint give her any prezzie fer teachers dae! ahHhh! nvm. i will get it during the hols. though its kinda late. nyahaha. shes lyke the perfect teacher ive ever met. rely. shes damn understanding..yah damn supporting too! ahakz. so just wanna let you know miss yap, im so happy ur my teacher. and HAPPY TEACHERS DAE too.!ahakz.
ouh yah MISS YAP FINALLY WEARS THE SKOOL U TO CLASS! she looks great in it. and she looks like one of the students.* she looks young..wae younger den her actual age!shes pretty ok..* ahakz.

oryte..jus now sk00l was ok..not much happened..got back my poa paper.hmm...hmm..
ahakz. and of cos got all the hols hmwk and was informed i need to come back on mondae fer oral. ok tat sucks. miss teo actually gave us 3 sets of maths papers to do. within 1 week. wtf! den got ss sumore..and malay..den skool reopen have to seat fer malay prelim. stress. stress. haiz..ni lah hid0p..hidop susah..mati pon susah..*wish me luck** i need it* ahaha.

celebrated wani's berfdae after skool juznow. wani, aku tau ko ingat kan aku luper kan ko..ahakz..yah we celebrated 2 daes after her berfdae. HAPPY BELATED BERFDAE WANI! hehee...we gave her a surprised one actually..she was clueless..den kiter orang sumer bawak dier pegi bawah blk ..den theres the cake.ahaah...the frozen ice cream cake. nyahaha.. tried lighting up the candles but since it was raining and due to the wind..we dint managed. ahakx..tapi yang sakit hati tu..takder pisau...so we rush to skool canteen and ask makcik to lend the pisau to us..ahakx.den we ran back to the blk in the rain..wit the pisau..nyahahaha..apa daa..den another problem came..the cake was frozen and we had a hard tyme potong-ing the cake..nyahaha..but finally we did lahh..and so we ate...sampai perot aku dah tak lehh angkat..it was nice lahh..but my skirt was damn dirrrty wit all the cake nyer stains.due to the potong-ing juz now. ahahkz..btol nyer tak senoneh..aahakz.
den go home lahh..my parents are at mua aunties house..helping out fer my cuzzie's wedding 2moro and on sundae..
so 2 moro had to wake up early to go to my aunt's house. hmm..

i relly wanna buck up fer my sa2 exams cumming up..so had to relly werk hard fer during these hols to catch things up..MUST study study study..but MUST oso play play play..nyahaha
wonders wen aku lehh jumper ngan members aku..hopefully i can go out wit them this tuesdae...haix..pray hard..nyahahah..ni lah hidop biler kener grounded..

im bored lahh actually but im gonna stop ryte here aites.i think i wrote longer than usual..long post arh hari nie...takder kejer perr..ahaha
so bubye.!!

btw aishah ur poem is relly nice..it meant a lot.

her story....

2005-09-01T17:12:00.000-07:00

My black broken heart
bleeds from time to time
while in search for that piece of art
to mend this heart of mine
other hearts instead i break
the false trials i can't make
i caused cuts tears and blood
i made them feel like a fucking mud
a prejudice to be blamed
well thats the bad me
just look, im being famed
the friends that come and go
no friendship left to grow
this is what she goes through
what you said, was it all true?
Juz look back and trully think
only does it take a blink
notheing can ever last forever
lies and promises you always stagger
flow of lust that bleeds like river
the loose ends i hangover
where was the drug i was looking for?
fuck. scream till my throat sore
i gotta stop it from bleeding
for my blood is running dry
soon enough shall it wipe out
that day shall i not cry
im not afraid to die
naither am i afraid to lose
but not mending what hurts inside
I'll be the first to call myself a fool

2005-08-31T08:43:00.000-07:00
harlowww

nyahaha..oklah todae i very the boring arh..tak dpat ekot members kuar..hmph
sedih tau..*sobs* oklah..
so juznow went out wit my sister about 5 plus..go bring her out go cut her hair..cut cut zap zap..ok lah..her hair quite nice lahh..nicer than mine..hmph..ahakz....
yah so den later go buy drinks..den go busstop..den ternampak HIM..HE was at the other side of the road..i was relly hoping he wud cross the road but UNFORTUNATELY..he didnt..*sobs*haiz..so watched him walk till he was out of sight. HES so cute lahh.

ok den juznow mcm budak sewel maner ntah..i was walking at the interchange waiting fer my bus..
den biler ngah tunggu bas..aku mcm raser sumthing wrong wit my right eye..so i asked my sis..dier buat tak layan..kongajar..hmph. and so i blink and blink and blink my eyes..DEN i dunnoe how...MY CONTACTS FELL OUT! ergh..so dah paiseyy arh..tak tau kalau ader orang ngok ke tak..nyehehe. den buat dekk jer ..so i hold on to the contacts..abeh i told my sis aku kener pegi toilet..kongajar dier refuse..so aku terpakser lah dok kat kat saner wit my contacts. abe wen i reach the bus..the contacts dried..sobs..out of shape aredi..so aku koyak2 kan jer..nyahaha..AND SO AKU CUMER RELY ON MY LEFT EYE VISION..satu leh nampak...satu tak lehh..ahahaha..haiz nad2..giler arh ko...nyahaha

oklah im out lahh..bubye

2005-08-29T06:37:00.000-07:00
im bored
bored giler babi nyer giler
takder pape nak uat arh
haiz
2moro going to bloodbank
nyahaha
tat means ony left a few lessons.
tat means no need open book to study
tat means I LOOIKKEE!
nyahaha
wed celebration
thurs holidae!! wheeee!!
fridae got skool not?
if got oso, so wat? its the last dae!
den HOLIDAE!!
whee whee whee!!
no need go skool!!
ok
bubye!!~~!!

safasdvas

2005-08-28T20:51:00.000-07:00

CARN BELIEVE MUM IS ALSO ON HIS SIDE!
URGH. THANK GOD BRO IS WIT ME.
now mum hates me.
i had to get a spoon for her IN THE MIDST OF MY MEAL when she could EASILY get it HERSELF
she haven't even started on her food yet.
i got scolded for NOT salam-ing her hand properly
n i had to do it again. wtf.
i got scolded for using the MP3 at home
coz she thinks im being ignorant
i got scolded for hentak-ing the bowl and mug on the table during dinner
ok. i hentak(it wuzn even a hentak! sheesh)
i wuz juz pissed off k?

what the fuck!!!!/???

2005-08-27T16:11:00.000-07:00

I HATE SCHOOL
I HATE STRESS
I HATE ZAHARI B HJ HASSAN
THATS MY father BY THE WAY
IM FUCKING PISSED
HATE HIM LYK SHIET
I NEVER ACCEPTED HIM AS A FATHER SINCE I WAS BORN
WHY THE FUCK MUZ I LISTEN TO HIM?
DUZEN EVEN DESERVE TO BE PART OF THIS FAMILY
FUCK. WHY MUZ HE BE EXISTENT IN MY LIFE
HE SHUD HAVE BEEN THROWN OUT

2005-08-25T06:34:00.000-07:00
i cant believed ive just cried.
i have had enuff. im freaking pissed. relly.
today is just the dae. the dae that triggers me off.
im so sick and tired of being treated like sum dolls.
i have feelings. i do.
i have my own life to lead.
u've just raised my hatred. yes. you did.
i gave up.
life is not as simple.
im hurt.
i dunnoe if u even noticed.
sumtymes its better to to leave things unsaid.
at tymes i wonder,
if i ever had a life.
i guess i dun.
i felt useless.
i dun deserve to live.
but i have no choice.
its fate.

my life

2005-08-25T05:49:00.000-07:00
today was just a bad day. i never felt so miserable. haiz. not entirely bcoz of what happen today but it juz pulled my trigger. iv reached my limit. limit. whats left of me in the inside is almost nothing. only my heart that u can easily stab and that's it. im dead. i've burned out everything else since day 1. juz when i thot of being single, life isnt any better i suppose. iv bin more burdened and also, unluvd. I AM NOBODY. i have always been nobody. my trigger was pulled today. i couldnt take it. i cried so hard. i cried so bad. wanted to cut. but realised that itll juz hurt me more. cried till my eyes swelled. i didnt care. cried till my eyes n nose became bloody-red. i didnt care. it was hard to breathe. i didnt care. my nose was dripping.i didnt care. my clothes were abit wet. i didnt care. i juz had to let out everything. everything that iv kept inside. everything that has accumulated. ppl may say im lucky. ppl may say i have a good life. but WTF u try living it and tell me what it feels like? Nobody will ever know. frenz were so hard to find. always come n go. that was usual for me. haiz. life was hard. my family's gg thru alot. my mum suffered alot. school was worse. art was just disgusting. beign kold an expensive daughter when i bring bekal and waterbottle almost evriday in skool. i din have much of a choice. sighhz. what have i done wrong? all i that i really wanted was a BREAK. all i wanted was my own space. i just need to breathe. reaching home at 7 at leaz everyday has been hard. saturdays n sundays wasn't of much help. im only 15. haven even reach 15! and just when i tried to get a break todae... i carn i just carn.... cz i have to be in school till 6. isit too much for me to ask. to juz have a FUCKING BREAK! till they have to hunt me down. you will not understand how i feel n u never will. iv been keeping this for so long. only ALLAH knows me. everything that i really felt. i may sound self-centred or patty. but i dont care. i have to write what i have to write. i have to let out what i have to. but thats juz my feelings. u may actually think abt it or u can juz forget abt it.

those who have shown concern n care in any way or another all this while. it is much appreciated. u ppl reli helped me alot. but its juz reli very sadd that i have to handle and overcome this myself. and i reli hope i will...

-HGVHCFCHCHGC-

2005-08-24T03:20:00.000-07:00

ello evrione....
ahahaha. kiter ngah tonnn.
wheeee.
posting for fun heh.
kk tmr klua!!!
tmr test!!!
aaahhhhhhhhhhh
haiss.
kpd members2 aku....
harap persahabatan kiter leh KEKAL
wakakakakakakaka.
i saddla nadiah cannot go tmr
i saddla nai canot ton wit us

2005-08-20T10:44:00.000-07:00
im seriously pissed. i dunnoe why.

btw i cut my hair.
its up to u guys what u all wanna sae.

went out wit nailah, who duh and aishah just now
im damn pissed wit myself.
im so stupid
im a jerk.

btw nailah n huda was nice..easy to click wit.
they're wonderful ppl
damn frenly.
aishah was great too.

i suck.
im so sad.
im angry wit myself.

den went to have dinner wit my sis
she waited fer me fer 1 and a half hrs.
sorry.

help.
im confused.
i so sad. and im mad at myself.

ouh yah..den went to my uncles place.
kak imah's engagement thingy.
congrats.
yah den went home.

im so sick.
i just hate myself.
i hate myself.

bye.

2005-08-19T03:27:00.000-07:00
fine if you hate me. i dun care. im happy. are you?
i dun give a damn fucking shit. i DONT.

had my compo comman test just now. i think i wrote it out of point. lerr. too bad its over now.
had history and ss yesterdae. dun wanna sae nithing.

stressed up. having mental block. arghh. mon gonna have phy, chem and poa.
wad r dey tryna do? 3 in 1 izit?!nvm..thurs gonna come fast. den its over over over.

skool have been sucky these daes. the ppl. the environment. the PC. got 10 daes fer skipping aft programme. wtf. tu pon nak bagi pc. skool's boring. nothing particular. its the same old dull skool. btw. dunnoe wat the hack they toking bout. im confused. i mean aku paham arh. but its not clear uuh. arh. hu cares bout them.

saw HIS fren juznow. getting cuter lah he. nyahaha.

im tired. planning to go out todae. go study or sumthing. ALONE. reach home at 5 plus. den no mood. lerr.

btw tomorrow going out wif aishah and nailah. rtye? maybe wanna have my hair cut. dahh panjang uuh. den rimas uuh. told my mom. den aishy called. sae she have had her hair cut. so coincidential. well it alwaes happens ryte aishah? coz great minds think alike. *nyehehe*

den maybe go studyy2 at esplanade? den go jamming? dunnoe yet lahh. but looking ferwerd lahh..cuz i wanna see aishah!!! long tyme no see...wens the last tyme uhh..ska fest ryte? miss u.
nyahahhaha.

btw to they all..aderkan batang sikit uuh. kalau nak ckp, ckp sendiri uuh.

*sigh*
lyfe is getting bad to worse.
im sad. im stressed. im pissed. im irritated. im off.

stress

2005-08-17T23:26:00.000-07:00

AISHY NI NGAH STRESS DOK!
ahahah. hais. strezzzd.
duno y. it isnt much.
but it juz hurts.
maybe not juz skool...
haisss. i duno.
felt like crying.
never did i let my tears out.
wats the big deal aniwae?
i have tests evryweek. no diff.
im juz sadd.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2005-08-14T16:00:00.000-07:00

AHHHH NVR GO GIG!!!!
MENYESALLLLL.
urgh shietla. haissss.
haha they all lah, cnt make it laz minit
i shoo saddla. sobs.
i still sad la.
cz of mr wheeeeee.
whinez.
*slaps herself*
btw aishy ate ALOT of roti kirai today.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

2005-08-13T00:56:00.000-07:00
FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! ARGH!! CANNOT GO GIG TODAY!! ARGH!! SO ANGRY! ARGH!
HAHA..GOT TO JAGER MY ADEK! LAME UHH!
AISHY..U SHUD HAVE GONE LAHH DEHH..!!
noe wad tt means? im fated to sit at home and STUDY. argh! but too bad...u see..im not..im wif the computer now..how am i suppose to open my book and STUDY?? haiz
okok..im too angry to type..haha..lame..
bye!

no money....

2005-08-12T01:42:00.000-07:00

AHHH NO MONEYYY
WHEEEEE
SHIETLA. HOW3?
TMR GIG.
BT NO MONEY.
HELPPPP.

2005-08-11T10:14:00.000-07:00
hey hey
nad here
guess wad im doing ryte at this moment?
hmwk fer heaven sake! blerrr. im so sick and tired of doing hmwk. i hate skool. i hate hmwk. and i hate tests and exams the most. its drives me crazee! argh!! comman test coming up. rely gt to study. real hard. die die must score oso. know why? thats the only wae i can be UNGROUNDED. that means im grounded. watado. haiz. got a lot to catch up on. esp my chem. i dun understand a thing. ahah. weak foundation. tats all i can sae. SO THAT MEANS I HAVE TA STUDY RYTE FRUM THE BEGINNING! back to nowhere. im doomed. and theres no need fer me to elaborate more on my otha subjects. they are of no difference i can sae. okok..dun care. by hook or by crook must score... at least a pass will do. haha..of cos my mom expects more lahh..erm As? h-a-h-a. ryte..im rely struggling..help!! aishah help me. PLS!
pls.pls. must buck up frum now. its nv too late ppl alwaes sae..

okok cut it off..dun wanna tok more bout it.

aha. coming saturdae. whee. haha. im excited. BUT that means i relly got to spend my fridae(tmrw) and sundae to study really hard. must catch up mahh..hidop kalau tak bacer buku skola maner nak carik duit..nak jadi kayer..boleh arhh..tu pon kalau ko sanggup rompak bank..carik maut. haiz. okok..rely got to get back to my hmwk. left 3 more qns. MUST DO. but rely tempted to go to sleep now. dah pagi...*sobs*. ergh.maths jus sux to core. no scratch tat. skool sux to the score. haiz ok lahh..i relly need to get back to werk. NOW.

haha..oryte..im out.*bloop bloop bloop*
nyehehe.

NDP O5

2005-08-09T00:45:00.000-07:00
NDP @ tamp-heartlands wad kinda fun... i oni got reli reli motivated after the fireworks. i was super damn near as compared to padang... cz it wuz like juz bside. haha. but the firewerks not so big uh... the normal one, but not to scary. den party3. whee. oklah managed to motivate the crowd a lil. den i sacrificed all my funpack items. ya den got this boy who lost his mum. then i help uh. brot him to my leader. ya den she took him frm ther. phew. haha. ya den when the thing ended i got crazy wit delfi. ahaha. NDP is FUN. muz go participate nx yr! wheee!

2005-08-07T22:49:00.000-07:00

BTW TO ALL THOSE COWARDS OUT THERE..LOOK INTO THE DAMN MIRROR AND SEE UR BLOODY SELF FERST BEFORE U ACTUALLY CRITICISE PPL.
GET UR OWN LYFE!
I NOE UR SO SICK AND TIRED OF URSELF THAT U ACTUALLY WANT TO HAVE FUN --BY CRITICISING PPL!

AND FROM AISHY, NAK KUTOK TU PIKIR BTOL2 UH... PIKIR MATANG2.

2005-08-07T22:13:00.000-07:00
haha..whee! yesterdae was fun! haha..
okok..tapi kener bully...*sobs* sufyan was so mean! haha..aishy too!...juz bcoz aku kaku...hmph..majok arh!
haha ...aishy pon kener bully sikit2..haha..sufyan so mean...imitate aishy..haha.
haiz..yap..its worth my money..
GSC rox! love them !

mosh-alicious and skank-alicious

2005-08-07T00:33:00.000-07:00

AISHY WAISHY IS HIGH AND HAVE DIFFICULTY SLEEPING

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! juz came back from ska-fest. so FUN! haha.... got GSC den purevibration... ya n sum local bands oso... din stay for bushmen though... too late redy. haizz nvmla. okla quite worth-it for the money. skank3. den nad kaku... ahaha. (its ok nad.... i understand) den sufyan damn mean to nad oso... den we bully2 her. haha. ya it was gr8. :))

sori shidah u cudn stay longer. wish u cud.... hmm... cheer up kie? smile!

okok then YESTERDAY.....went to punk rock returns 2!!! oso fun!!! ahahaha. mosh3. ya till my skirt tear abit. dots why did i wear skirt??? sheesh.okok my fault. but who cares? still mosh. den got pancaked... i wuz at the bottom... urgh. lucky oni half of my body... den nadiah pull me out. haha. funny. den fall down twice i tink. ya. damn violent uh. but the songs were good. :)

.....................

2005-07-31T16:29:00.000-07:00

haiss
i wana post
but sudd my mind went blank
racial harmony wuz fun
i wore sari :)
with merc shirt inside and converse shoes!!!!
ahahahahahah
ok gona wear cheongsam nx yr
din get to buy the ska fest tix yest or todae
lazzzyyyy.
btw the NDP motivator's uniform damn striking uh.
got luffd at by SUM ppl
ahahahahahahha.
okok gtg

2005-07-23T01:45:00.000-07:00
As you can see. nad here.

long tyme nvr post. buzee lah. den lazee sumore.
pimples are appearing everywhere on my face now. fucka.
yah its 2 ++ am now. im relly tired.relly sleepy. but dun hab the mood to slp larh.yah.todae after sko0l go do my chem RE-test. note tat. haha.
den after that went walk2 at tampines wif mua mom. asked her if i can go. she told me to ask my dad. ok. i relly badly wanna go. relly. i noe im grounded. but i relly badly wanna go. i wanna go there and have fun.
1 week left fer me to decide. no scratch tat. fer my PARENTS to decide.
im grounded.i cant believe im grounded. ergh.
yah..this few daes..oweas sleep at 3 am..woke up at five. shucks. tomorrow going fer charity walk wadeva its called. i mean lyke its a sat. i need to catch up on my slp lah. abeh nak kener bangun pagi2. spoil lah. kentalan jubo.i dun wanna go. haix. but i wanna go. i wanna see Him. cheeky me.haha. dun even noe if hes goin. lerr.
my eyes are heavy. relly heavy now. the words getting blurr. my eyes closin any minute now. ~lala land~ NO! wake up. yah. slightly awake. goonna slp soon. haix. maybe now. haha
otay. till then. bye.

-pissed-

2005-07-22T00:31:00.000-07:00

OK I AM OFFICIALLY PISSED WITH MY DAD
I SHALL NOT ELABORATE
WADEVA IT IS, ITS STILL NOT FAIR
NOT FAIR

i never did respect him aniwae. since the dae i wuz born. urgh. darn selfish men. they're evil. trust me. even if u think otherwise. they will show their evil side. the day all men cannot lead their families is the day the world ends.

yeah. so happen tt the sec 3 lvl having lotsa disputes. shant elaborate. exept for the fact which includes me. which reli made me boil. is that murny kold me a poser(if u dun noe the meaning, dont use it). hey if she is so experienced n knowledgable, i dun mind. but..... unfortunately she is not. she duzen know a SHIT about culture and she dare kol me that. test arr. wad. tink u so gr8 kol otha ppl poser isit? if im a poser den wad is she? so much for kolling herself a FREN. a FREN that bitches about other people. eh she wan to spread oso, haiz, wad can i do? oOo. she and wad army? nak declare war pon il be happy too.cz it wun be my lost.

i jus wished that....................... dots

video

2005-07-17T10:34:00.000-07:00
btw the video is here
http://209.245.59.34/Gimme/65844436/1776765841/66310034/5CA59BC1-B1CF-4722-8459-D13907A04246/0.0286901/2/DSCF2980.AVI

baybeats

2005-07-17T01:30:00.001-07:00
aishy-waishy damn tired from a really tiring day...

okok 1st was the yescom competitn thingi. kinda laz minit for me n kak cz we had to design n do the deco. hahas *claps* we did it! wheee. i think it went quite well. i skipped ndp prac. cannotla. haiz, hope ET understands. seriously.

kk den BAYBEATS!!!!! damn FUN! ahahahahahha. okok actuali i wuz spose to go wit nailah n naz... den a few otha ppl wanted to tag along. ya well i(ahem) din mind... im not mean. but i guesd they had a shock of their lives when me n nai pushed them into the moshpit and see them screaming n panicking... ahhahaha. we so evil. then tros they went sum corner. so oni me n nai ya then we pulled naz wit us. sweat like mad-dog. BUSHUK! oh ya... afiq was kinda beside me wit his frens. den they oways kacau Nai(ahem). ahahahaha. ya den b4 that Rafi was bside me.den i and his fren buried his shoes with the rocks. ahahaha. so fun. ya met Hafidz, kak Haf, kak Raihan, tis extremely tall guy that i always meet n tok to but duno his name until today, atiqah, ya den duno hu else uh....

ya den after tt met my family at swensens.celebrating ilhams bdae. ya btw iman is getting vain. ahahahahha.

ya btw... juz wanna sae smth. realised that the world wasn't so innocent after all... i didn't reli noe that sum ppl clssified at HYPOCRITES actually exist. u noe, the act-so-nice in front of u but kutok-like-hell behind u. ya i tink being optimistic and trusting isnt all tt good. hais. u noe... until ppl STEP on otha ppls head and juz kick it one side. USE ppl juz when they need to and dont even show a single appreciation.SUM ppl who tink they r so great... ya n experienced... ya n know so many things... stuck-up and look down at others. being so SELFISH and think that the world revolves ard them.

* oh ya btw im still trying to upload the photos n video from baybeats but the internet abit lagg. ya so those who cant be PATIENT and are ALLERGIC to the pics, u are welcomed to NOT see them. il get it up by tis week insya-allah.

btw video is here http://209.245.59.34/Gimme/65844436/1776765841/66310034/5CA59BC1-B1CF-4722-8459-D13907A04246/0.0286901/2/DSCF2980.AVI

wtf

2005-07-13T23:48:00.000-07:00

I STILL HATE AMATH
I STILL HATE SKOOL

well since sum ppl wanted pics so badly i managed to put 2 up. from previous gigs la tat one. tried to put more but the rez went out of size n i kinda given up... nx tym put more uh.

2005-07-10T03:26:00.000-07:00
matha fucka. took me a long tyme to post this damn thing! this my third attempt..ergh..

nad here..
yah backie frum ugamer. den need to finish my hmwk..maths, poa, 2 compos- i mean karangan lah..den do compre..shucks. bloody
dun feel lyke doing. how can i finish it all..
haiz 2dae damn boring lah..
ouh yah yesterdae..went out with aishah to penin..walk2..den go to this shop..the owner and the kakak damn nice seyy..alwaes give discount.yipee..but still dunnoe if i can collect enuf money to buy the skirt next week. argh.
okay..yah..dunnoe lah..everytyme wen we go penin slalu kener kacau..esp by skinheads. blo0dy.
yah..den met xue yin at the shop. yah..kinda shocked. hehe..
god..pls let me mom let me go fer next week show..okaylah..u see wen ur grounded its the same thing as suffering but not dying. and thats WORSE.
yah..gotta finish me hmwk. fucka. hate hmwk..!!!!!ergh.
oryte buaiz
~nad out~

-phew-

2005-07-09T20:56:00.000-07:00
wahh tis daes damn packed. haha got a new video. cz bob marley veh boring lerr... yupz tis song oso one of my favouritez... tho its not ska. sedap... mmm... the videoclip oso nice. heheh.

okok junow learnt part of the new ndp dance. yah cz i sign up to be the motivators... ya kinda fun... den go cityhall wif nad den got alot of p5 students cz they gg for NE show... haha. den terserempak wif XY at penin. ya kinda surprised. ya den at penin kene kacau ngn skinhead... urgh. den we run away... haha.

shara n shaza's outing rock climbing quite fun... kinda hapi tat not many ppl came if nt kecoh... kiter sikit org dah kecoh. damn farnie lah. den at ferst harness nt enuf... bt den ok lah. evribody had fun n all.

whoooo

2005-07-07T00:04:00.000-07:00

ok... happening seh my days... phew. yesterdae

erm wednesdae... lets juz say its a 'meeting' dae... terserempak with alot of ppl... no nid to elaborate uh... oh ya n had yfc interview...

junow wuz keep fit day.. ya did line dancing. oklahh. lazy to elaborate uh... quite fun uh. den go back late. den wok alone at cedar avenue damn scary la... got bangla oso... damn scaredla... otha den dat nth much

tmr gg rock-climbing with my skoolfrenz to celebrate naz, shara n shaza bdae n later with m cuzzins again. carn wait.

baybeats is in a week time...
ska fest 2 is in a month time...

-major dae-

2005-07-02T00:41:00.000-07:00

Todae was a MAJOR DAY.

k 1st wuz the aero-competition. ya, went to seletar with the helmet. ahahaha. naz din bliev it. aniwae, 1st rd, DQ!!!! wakakak. 2nd rd, we finished! timing of 4 min 46 sec. ya n dirah(my mechanic) rocks lah cann? she start engine damn fast! but... so sayang our plane so LEMBAB! haiz kk, were gonna build cyclone plane when we return. insya-allah. so ex lah.

okok 2nd wuz the YESCOM carnival. i went down to tamp to help out. yeah din do much aniwae. the place wuz full of stalls n all. ya n the most IRONIC part of it wuz that there was like a gig there too. cuz there were bands playing. got emo, punkrock, ska n skapunk. but not so many uh. but still... u noe its SO pathetic. they were playg then no audience. gotla a few(including me). heh. i so sesat! stand in the middle. haha den got save ferris!!! den i skank ALONE. sikit2 ajer uh. den kakak stop me. haha. oh ya... n i missed MIMPI!!!!!!!!!! AAAHHH!!! coz i went to the mosque. hais. okla but overall, our skool did okayy. made a few friends n bot sum stuff.

OH YA N PPL! HOUSE OF WAX IS SOO GROSSS N SCARYY!!!

-tired-

2005-07-01T00:50:00.000-07:00
okok junow came hm at abt 11 at nyt... cz got ML den went rock-climbing wit mybro n cuzzies. had alot of fun. damn tired. hands aching. ya n i have aeromodelling comp tmr. urgh. hate it. juz wana get it over n done wit. oh ya n i gotta drop by tamp to visit azy n mazmo's booth for the YESCOM competitn. of courz, muz give moral support at leaz. haha. if i got the mood den i help ler. well tts all the meaty stuff tt happend. skool was as usual. hmmz boring.

oh ya, got a new tactic to make me not sleep in class. tats to drink coffee. but evribody say its bad. well it keeps me awake... seriously! i woke up late so i din bring coffee to skool n i wuz practically half-asleep thruout geog n hist. haha. hmm... coffee gives u bad breath.coffee makes u shorter(oh really?). coffee kills ur braincells(wow). haiz dunola.

"u lose some, u gain some. learn to accept n let go. even if that someone or something is ur luvd ones"

-back to skool-

2005-06-27T23:44:00.000-07:00

aishy says...
I HATE SKOOL
DO U?
I HATE AMATH
DO U?
I HATE HW
DO U?
URGH

GTG FINISH MY ART. TOODLES!

sori ppl if u carn read im trying to mend it :)

haiz

2005-06-25T07:28:00.000-07:00
naDeya Here

i wonder iF u gUys caN make Out whaT i posT here..haIz..buT i likE iT althO itS menyEmakIng coZ this is Our bLog aIsh! okAy thaNks a Million to Aish..soRRy lah akU taK dpT toloNg ko snGt..dapt cursoR abe Maner hiLang ntaH..haHa..oryTe..iM addIcteD to your sOng aiSh...taKper naNti nexT monTh kiTer caRik mY song laK kay! haaH..yaH jusT came baCk fruM shOpping wiT my faMIly and jusT now f0llow aiSh and her mOm do tHe notice b0ard..kinda fUn laH..her m0m sho sweeT lah..
oryTe stoOpping herRe..
bUaiz..
~naD ouT~

-blog layout-

2005-06-23T13:12:00.000-07:00
Aishy waishy very frust for the paz 2 nites trying to change layout... did it myself changed it totally. nad help get cursor oso lahh... ahahah. haiyoh but still not satisfied!!! carn get the pictures moving... if i try den can redy the video cannot! ahhhh! haha... lerr sori eh nad. tis time put my song 1st k?? later after 1 mth den can put ur reggae music... haha ppl... i noe the font and the blogger is VERY irritating n hard to read... but im working on it... yeah...
ahahahah.

so PLS TAG n GIVE UR COMMENTS.....

-levis jacket-

2005-06-18T03:00:00.000-07:00

ok im feelin betta

mom got me levis jacket that iv bin wanting :)

mom also got the keciks toys

tmr is laila's bdae party

HAHA gonna bash that lil girl up

ya im kiddin

tataz!

-i hate-

2005-06-18T00:30:00.000-07:00

I HATE THE POLICE

I HATE SINGAPORE'S strict LAW

WHY DONT MY PARENTS BELIEVE ME?

-URGH-

IM NOT TRYING TO SIDE ANYONE

ITS THE TRUTH!

2005-06-17T22:07:00.000-07:00

KO KO KO NEK NEK NEK
HATE LYFE.

-marathon!!!-

2005-06-16T05:30:00.000-07:00
haha ok. btw its 5.14am in the morning. i actuali stayed up all night. haha. chatting n surfing the net. can u beat that. haha. actuali now i sleepy redy wan to sleep but im waiting for suboh. den can pray n den go sleep all the wayyyy. hahahah. now im sleepy.wow. okok a few more minutes... persevere... actuali i kinda learnt how impt frenz reli are when u dont have ur family with you. n how important it is to cheer each other up.

nobody wud bliev me. nobody wun listen to me. wad more can i do? hai. tis is the worst holidae i ever had. seriously. i carn help it. evrything abt it. its juz the worst. urgh.

oh ya n i still owe naz's bdae pressie n shidah's bdae is cumin...oh no. arrhh.

-bad blood-

2005-06-14T23:07:00.000-07:00

im reli not in the mood
im reli sori if i said anithing i din mean
CURSE the bad blood my family has
i thought it was all over
why was my bro so stupid??
uuurrrgghh!!!
noe y im so sad n worried?
coz i love him
even after wad he has done
so sad mum n dad isnt here
they carn help
im crying inside
im helpless too

2005-06-10T20:50:00.000-07:00
nadeya here!

after what it seems lyke fereva

*suffering in silence*
im grounded babe. until i achieved satisfying grades.
lyke-whf?! it wun happen. not eeven after aku mati bangun balek.

arhg. hell with that. dun wanna think bout it.

ouh yah. after 1 week++ back frum langkawi trip. sort of dah basi lah. but its not to me. i relly wanna go back there again and enjoy.
it was great. prank calls. hopping, running to otha rooms. messing up otha peeps rooms. jumping on tha bed. catching my shoes when it is almost being swept my the waves. the boat ride. DJ(datok john). gado ngan the salesgirls there. angel-mortal game. *go carzzie* enjoying the view of the historical island. the bus. the restaurants. frens. yeah.
LANGKAWI TRIP WAS GREAT.

but too bad lor. its just a sweet memo now. *sobs* .

hmm. i dunnoe but suddenly i feel lyke doin my maths hmwk.haha. manernyer angel masok pon tak tau lah. so yah. im off now.

-camp!!!!-

2005-06-10T07:28:00.000-07:00
okok ppl... im BACK!!!! wohooo.... i wana announce that... I SURVIVED A 5-DAY-WILDERNESS-CAMP AT PULAU TUBAH(LANGKAWI)!!!!! muahahha. serious... but. bad news. my camera got spoilt. urgh. if not i cud have shown u the pics... aarh! wasted.

okok. NOMBOR 1: 5-star-toilet AKA JB(jamban)
how it was?i wish i had a pic.the first time abg Zaki took out the cover. FUYOOOH. flies came out. it was just a HOLE. gedit? a miserable hole with flies flying all over it, filled with SHIT and SAWDUST. to top it all off there were also maggots. can u imagine that? n we had to make our own cover... bury 3 wooden poles, then wrap wit the blue canvas that they always use at the construction place dat wan.... haha.

NOMBOR 2: tents... nah more like shelters...
we were just given this big blue canvas that we have to fix using the branches and wood around the jungle to make a 'tent'. then got floormat. thats our sleeping place... erm okla. leh tahan. the kitchen was abt the same... just that the shelter is higher.

NOMBOR 3: HAHA I COOKED!(for the first time without my mum or maid)
eyy dun pray2 uh... nasi gorang kicap uh... muahahaha. plus... i wuz in the JUNGLE. haha. bez kann? den i organize the other menus... cz need to be healthy meals...

NOMBOR 4: Jungle trekking(urrgghh)
OMG i tell u dis wan i wan to DIE!!!! jungle trek for about 3 almoz 4 km. up and down the hills... damn steep arr! rabak. and noe wad can make it worse? it rained. very hevily... and the jungle is like u noe... DAMN jungly... haha. duno wads that but ya got alot of trees n all that. its juz so much worse than macritchie or bukit timah NR or wherever... ya so when i climb i juz pull any vine, then i din realise that one vine got THOrNS!!! arrrh! den one small thorn got in my finger. sobs. so pain. den another worse thing. since we're moving campsite, not only do we have to bring our backpacks which is already soooo heavy, we have to bring abit of the food or other stuffs along... i had to bring the chilli bottle n got summore. so heavy!!! ohohoh, n ya the WORST of all... during the trek, i wanted to pee so badly! ahahaha. i couldn walk properly uh. ya den i tol evrione else to go 1st den i went to pee under this HUGE tree. ahahah. heckla. canot tahan!

NOMBOR 5: kayaking(wheee)
okok. tis wan. heheh. i expert! heh.nolah. not expertla, but one of the experienced there. ya den i got partnered to this guy 'Yum'. ya den he help paddle power2, den i help control. dunola, but we made a gd team. ya... den we all made a raft n ate lunch in the middle of the sea... so FUN!!! ya den after mamam n all we continue uh... den my partner bcum dizzy... den i had to paddle myself for a while... den he paddle... den sudd. he VOMITED. ewwww. den all his vomit in the sea n sum on him paddlen the side of the boat. ya n it wuz floating! yucks. i quickly paddle away. n paddle back to catch up with the rest myself... waaah. haha.

NOMBOR 6:clan cheers!!!!!
i love these sessions!! ya duh when it cums to cheerin... aishy bcums high... yeah. so fun. den this funny guy, 'shukri' ya he made up wit the 'who love capella?' song. den dance summore. damn farnie larr... haha.luff like madd. den we made a few cheers, all combined. ya bonded alot oso. n i really like our cheer:) Capella rocks!

there were also other stuffs that i din mention uh. like Reef Explorer wher we learn abt maritime stuff... n oso 'high' ropes which is erm,not very high. but it was on a boat.coolioz. the songs n games were also great. instructors whch was abg Zaki and abg Azuan. they damn patient and nice. ya n audrey got bitten on the lip then it swell up so bad. urgh. so scary. den she bit it den puss n blood came out. den we changed using the sarong n audrey was so fascinated by it.haha. ya reli miss the other campers, esp those from counterparts of msia. sighz.regret not using the time i had to actuali reli get to noe them.onli till the laz nite. sighz. oh ya not forgetting i lost my voice at the end of the camp n at the hotel i sounded so squeaky n malina got very irritated by it. haha. i got 2 twins oso. 1 is Linda who looks alike like me and Aisyah who has the same name as me! haha. carn blive not oni my name but my face is also common. lerrrz.

the trip back was relieving... whooo. we all sang on the ferry and stinked the bus. aha! bathed like hell once we reach hotel... den nx morning ate breakfast den went to the beach to play... of course we had our reflections to do oso... but once i finished i played soccer wit ada, ms neo, vinoth, fadzli, chin jie, CK and Darius. Mr ezra oso join us... damn funla. i scored 2, wanted to do hatrick n keep the ball but the ball kene tiang(post). nvmla. gave the hatrick to vinoth. he played good. he used to be in the skool team. duhh. den msneo told me to open a football club in cedar. ya i wuz reli tinking of it... sighz. nvm jc got. heh. i still have nx yr.... or tchers dae. The flight was ok cz we were served n all. but Darrel was so irritatingla. at first okla. but he kept playing wit ice. haha. but both of us got windchimes for our mums. heheh.

yupz thats all for my update for the whole week. well at leaz the hot parts of it...heh.

-dorr painting-

2005-06-03T01:11:00.000-07:00

okok spent ard 4 hrs of my dae painting my door... ya it wuz kinda spoilt. wantd to change. heheh. ya i noe its not perfect or wadeva. but i did it all my myself!! wohoo. so proud. nad wuz spose to help but she wuz too tired from langkawi trip. nvmla, she got me a merc shirt tho. wohooo! haha. but she still carn see my door cz she carn go online... lerr. then il like be away for 1 WHOLE WEEK for camp. ya so ppl dun miss me tau... haha.

-bro-sis quality time-

2005-06-02T00:04:00.000-07:00
well. lets juz say that me n saiful had BRO-SIS quality time togeda junow... haha oklah. quite fun. ferst go to loyang pt to check out the tution cntre.. den go ws. den at guardian very kekek. i wanted this particular perfume... but i carn find... then tol saiful to go outside to see thru the glass panel... then he saw one at the very edge, so he pointed... den i stretchla to get that flavour perfume. then all the rez toppled. like "bowling pin"... den i juz buat dek. den luff lyk mad ppl until the saleswoman stare lyk 1 kind... saiful oso got one, diff flavourla. he's not gay mind u. haha. i am. waakkaakkaa. ya den shopping2.... eat at magic wok. ya n we kinda finishd all the $60 tt mum gave us. cz i gotta get alot of stuff for my langkawi camp. wooohoooo. heheh.

eh nadiah cam da tak blog jek.... ouh ya her comp spoilt... haha. but now she still at langkawi... wonder wat she bot for me... hmmmz.

-urgh-

2005-05-31T09:43:00.000-07:00

haiss i so sadd
my bro got lectured rabak2 for his results
trust me it wuz bad
n i got scolded
noe for wat?
for defending him
but i cudn bear it
i had to
urgh
i dun even noe y im so sad
i can lyk break dwn anitym
but it aint worth it
cuz tears wun help

-unfair-

2005-05-31T07:42:00.000-07:00
nt reli in da mood to post.reli, i hate to write bad stuff here.but. sumtimes i just carn take it.
when im always affected, when my bro did smth bad and wrong.now not onli him but I am also controlled.i din do anithing wrong and they took my freedom.urgh.its just aint the same. i know. im not blind.y wud BOTH my parents be kolg me askin wher n wat tym im cumin hm at 4.30PM when they know that i finish at 4PM??and our frenz r NOT bad.its HIS.so happen they misunderstood.now i carn lepak wit them no more. wth.well at leaz i carn get caught. like b4. urgh.

tok bt being fair.

like laz nite when I said EVRYBODY wanted ice cream,when they came back... oni 3 packets. I tot there were 4 children?hey im also siding my bro ok. i noe tis is kind of a small matter. but it reli hurts to see all ur siblgs xcept for u eating ice-cream, thinkg y u din get one.

ya n so happen that I hav been eating "recycled" food(u noe those oily stuff from my kenduri yang nak dkt basi tu) for the paz 3 days.or not eating at all.while... they went out for dinner. and take lunch outside.my bro ate outside too, n din eat dinner. n when i askd y they din eat at home as usual? "oh, duwan to eat recycled food" u tink i wan?? 3 whole days... breakfast/lunch/dinner. urgh. k nvm tat one i dun mind... at leaz i GOT food...

apparently my allowance is also being controlled. haiss.

-just a sunday-

2005-05-29T21:36:00.000-07:00

buildings representing society

heyy. finally got my art SA1 assignment up! bet u dunno wher i took the pics from. nyeh. its for ya'll to see, if u wan. if duwan nvm. dunid to see. nak kutok, kutokla eh... nak praise pon dipersilakan. haha. but i got B3 for art overall. haiz. expecting a distinction tho. but its okie... bt my results... erm they were, alrite... no position tis yr. nth much to post. tmr gg for langkawi camp briefing. hmm i think i shall go sms n disterb ppl. heh! tata!

-kenduri-

2005-05-28T23:55:00.000-07:00
basically todae i spent the whole day in my house. doing at least SOME work. not like the MEN. sheesh. okok. gotta thank those hu drop by earlier to help.k evrything went well.i guess. but... erm... ok i wun tell... urgh! btw the bros(and sum peepz) drop by!!! whee! haha kinda surprised. am lan khalis amat wan... ya tts all i tink. they finished all the roti kirai n drank i tink 3 jugs of syrup*jaw drops* haha nvmla. at leaz they help to finish. den mum got sensitive... sheeesh!!! juz coz she duzen socialise... duzen mean i carn. i mean i wuz sitting wit saiful... urrgh!!! k nvm, maybe mums juz dun understand... wad more can i do. carn be rude either. juz walk away... den iman got constipation cz he din wana shit... noe y? cz he has to pee if he wana shit. n he duzen wana pee cz itll be painful... ya n the cycle continues....

ok my parents r back... c ya soon!!!

-laz dae of skool-

2005-05-28T00:40:00.000-07:00

AISHY PROUDLY ANNOUNCES THAT...... ITS THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!

wohooo! haha. finally. end of skool. but holidae cam tk holidae gituk. evridae cum back... sheesh. i counted n i oni have 7 days in the whole holidae that im free. n moz prob il spend those days bonding wit my family.

oh ya todae is my parent's anniversary(i think). yeah ya dad bot mum a hp.typical. den i scol him, haha tol him to get a bag. n he did! haha. actuali he wanted to get louis vuitton(however u spell it) yar, but i said NOOOOO. haha. so makcik2.

ya n my lil bros redy sunat. dots. its disgusting. n scary. *thanks god* cz i dun have to go thru it. wakakaka. den i tink theyr reli trying to NOT pee. cz i tink its painful. ouch. okok bsk kenduri. that means.... shhh secret! aderla.

okok went out wit kakak n bros junow. ate at long john. n confronted lan. yeah. i had to. if not when? yups. had to settle it there n then. then lepakd at ws. ate ice kacang. while the bros onli ate ice. haha! had fun... oh ya then they tk abis2 play with my box! haha=P

while i wuz having the fun my blog buddy, nad, cut her hair... haha sorrie i cudn make it. i ended skool too early. carn wait to see it tho. ^^ whee!

-ska fest-

2005-05-23T21:44:00.000-07:00

me n nelly's feet

amad malu!!!

khalis

tired me

PenaTT

haha. got the pics up. whee~ ska fest was FFUUUNNN!!!! yeh. haha. skanked like mad dog. bepeluh giler den sooo tired. abit dizzy oso. den bau masam. eeew! but heck. evrybody smelt the same. wakakaka. tho i wuz like squeezed n pancaked. dalah aku sekeping! the dancefloor wuz like sardine can. esp biler gsc. rabak seh. but lucky i wuzn alone. phew i waz considered lucky. unlike other gurls. coz khalis wuz wif me. he's juz a fren MIND YOU. i got elbowed la. den kene my spec. tros my spec senget. sobs. the lens pon out of place. stupid bastards. den got diz one person div den fall bside me. sheesh. my shoulder pain arhh. haha. den got pushed. urgh. kinda embarrased myself. tat i shall nt elaborate. heh. erm din take any pics in that place cz i left my digicam in the locker. din get nur's pic either. made frenz wit her there :) met alot of ppl there oso. den got free drink and the man gave anudder free drink den met my parents n bro at bugis...

2005-05-22T22:55:00.000-07:00
been wanting to post but theres so many distractions.

nadeya here.

i dunnoe but as each dae passed by, im feeling more insecure. im lonely. and i hate tat. i got hurt easily. i dun wanna cry. and i will never cry. i havnt cried fer such a long tyme . so y start now? i dun wanna depend on anyone. never. y must i. i lead my own lyfe. i have my own family and i love em'. i do not have any space fer more. i give up. im not living in this bloody fantasy life nemore. i dun wanna lie to myself. i hate pretending to myself. i dun wanna tok bout wat happened. never. i have to leave it. and will never come back. it hurt me so just to think about it. im not gonna die. i'll live. LIVE.

at least i feel betta now. (deep long breath) din do much todae. normal sundae. dunnoe wats up 2moro. havnt relly got plans. not confirmed.
june hols in a week's tyme. whee.
nad~out~